life

it's been up and down these past couple weeks. i been sick for the past week. i've also been very insecure about myself when it comes to billy. we had a talk the other day about him and us and i think that just made me a little more insecure, but i'm getting better about it. i just really want to help him out as much as i can, but i'm scared that i might fail at it. i hope he can open up to me more so that i know what to do to help him. as for my life in general, i think that i need to open up to him as well, and not be afraid to bring anything up to him. also, i needa get out of this sickness business bc it's really killing me being this way all the time. school's gonna be starting up soon, i'm kinda nervous, but i'm sure i'll get through it juss fine....juss gotta keep my eye on the prize. hopefully this up coming year will be filled with as many great memories as this year and much more.

home

for the rest of summer. it's alright so far. haven't really done much because there really isn't much to do. i been sleeping a lot though, mostly bc i'm so tired from having to wake up early for work now. i don't mind being at home, since i get to spend time with the fam bam, but i miss billy lots....sigh....lots and lots..

work

i worked my first open to close day. soooo tired. i had to stand for the majority of the 8 1/2 hours that i was there. made a couple mistakes, but noting too horrible. billy got to come and have lunch with me on my break. saw matt and kassey there haha..that was funny bc i thought billy was with matt, but they came to the hospital separately lol. i had fun tho...got to hang with nikki a couple times and also made myself 2 blackberry italian sodas hehe.

all-in-all i think this is a great way to start out as far as jobs go. having weekend shifts helps me get used to doing everything without being thrown into a busy day right away. i'm kind of nervous about working with one of the supervisor's during th weekday soon, but hopefully i ge through it unscathed hehe. well, it's time for a nice nap before i continue reading.

getting in shape...

i think i'm gonna finally get started on that. i've been meaning to do it all summer but never gotten to it. i need to do it, so i will...starting today! ok...i will do this and i will keep at it. hopefully....pilates here i come!!!

work work work

work has been pretty chill so far. basically been training the past couple of days. i know how to work the register now, and i'm slowly but surely getting used to making drinks. i really wish i could just practice without worrying bout making the drink wrong. hmm..if only i had my own little espresso machine so i can practice making the milk right. i think that's the only thing i worry about the most. other than that, i'm pretty sure i know how to make everything. i'm also getting pretty good at doing the codes on the cups hehe.

i'm juss so excited that i have a job now!! yee!! i juss wanna keep making drinks til i get the hang of it :D

got meeself a job

so i got my first job yesterday. i'm gonna be working as a barista :D i think the excitement of it all drained out all my energy for today...soooo tired. but lookin on the bright side..i start tomorrow! wish me luck :D

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omg i can't believe it only took me an hour and a half to write my essay. amazing! i think it was because of class today. it really got me thinking bout all kinds of ideas to write my essay on, and i think i did a pretty good job at it. at first i wasn't sure what my thesis was going to be but i started writing down stuff on a piece of paper and got a page front and back of stuff written down. then i finally figured it out and started typing it up. it just flowed and it felt so good :D i haven't written this long of an essay except for once and i feel really good that i could write this one without too much distractions yeeee. as you can see, my typing for this blog has been full of run on sentences and that's because i'm now too lazy to care about grammar haha. kk thanks for reading this :D i'm juss so glad i got it done :D can't stop with the smileys hehe :D